In recent years, I discovered a personality traits about myself that I wanted to change. When it comes to relationships I've had difficulty changing. I am stubborn. And I do not like change. Sometimes, when set in your ways, change is difficult. Finding love has always been difficult for me. I think I had found that special woman that I wanted to spend the rest of my life, but then the bubble burst. I found what I wanted from the relationship and what they really had was very different. Actress and filmmaker is likely to agree.
Probably my expectations were too high. I just wanted to love, be loved and share my life with someone special. Women tend to fall in love with tend to have different ideas. Some of the women wanted to be supported, some seemed to just want a friend and then some really did not know what they really want. I noticed that they tend to remain in the relationship too long. I was when I knew I should. I did this because I always had hope that the relationship would change for the better. He had discovered that this is a false hope and never better than ever.
My problem is that I was easy. What people call a dupe. It's probably a combination of low self-esteem, shyness and have a personality very easy. I try to take life easy. Although I think I know what is happening, it is still very easy to take advantage of me. My love life had gotten so bad that after my last relationship, I decided I did not want another relationship again.